Musings at 48.25 years old

  

I am finding that this is a very true quote and I have been reflecting a lot on what I am learning from my life's experiences.  I don't know if it's because I am approaching 50 (now turned 48 in January) and I can't believe I am there already, or because I am in the most challenging job I have had for a long time where I see a lot of sickness and human nature. It is so real to me that we only truly know ourselves when we are put in different situations. We may think we know how we feel or react but until we are in it under duress then we really find out what our true character is. I understand more deeply why we need to go through different experiences, whether to learn to see things from other's perspectives, or to test the depth of our character and highlight areas for improvement. Every day, several times a day, I ask myself, what am I to learn from that incident or situation? How could I have handled it better (or maybe on a rare occasion I actually did pretty well!). Sometimes it's obvious but often it isn't clear or it could be multiple lessons. Of course, with human nature sometimes I just don't want to see the obvious and it takes a while for it to sink in!

I also find myself reflecting on how short our time is. To me the past 30 years have gone by so fast. I regret not doing more when I could have been further along in certain areas by now. If I had started that habit 5 or 10 years ago what fruit would have been borne by now. Thoughts like that are a spur to get on and be a doer. I want to look back in another 5 years and see what was accomplished rather than regret what wasn't.  

That's another thing I have come to realize - how futile regret is. You can wallow in it and nothing changes. It's a total waste of energy. Just learn from the past and move forward. I often ponder that God has given us a new day, new week, new month and new year to remind us that we can start over again and again and again. That's so encouraging. 

Here's to 1.75 more years of experiences and learning as I reach age 50 (God willing).

This is Love

This Is Love

Love is a giving a caring, a soul that's always sharing

Though unnoted it's deeds are, they're derive from a vibrant spa.

A sensitivity to others, with heartfelt care for all brothers

Regarding not the color of their skin, for to hm all men are kin.

Not content to tramp one mile, love travels further (with a smile)

Always forgives when he's been wronged, hurt is forgotten before too long.

Love flows from God, down through his son, then into us (if we'll only come)

A precious gift of life, yet free, a vital commodity for you and me.

Redeem Time

Redeem Time

Take time to use time:

Every precious moment counts

Please don't abuse time:

It is forever lost

Take time to give time

To others who may need

Comforting words, a kind deed

Take time to see

Take time to gold-mine

For treasures deep and rater

And as you've freely gotten

Take time to share

Take time to ensure

Your name stays in the book

Then you'll soon find that 

Time is no more.

Ode to Maternal Love

Ode to Maternal Love

When I was small and wrinkled

With a face that often crumpled

Bawled to bring the house down

You love me just the same

Though I was often messy 

And really quite a smelly

Constantly demanding

Your devotion didn't wane

And as I grew and toddled

Hands sticking to all and sunder

(A typhoon at large)

With firmness you directed

Unconscious of all danger

Ignorant of fire and water 

Nothing sacred in my grasp

With ingenuity you protected.

As with "whys?" I would exhaust you

Continually wanting more 

With such tender love 

You did inspire

So now I just want to say

To you who loved me first

Thank you for bringing me

Safely to this hour!

You CAN make it

When life seems tough and dreary and you're kinda getting weary
of the struggles that make your mind a battle ground.
And if you're  tired of fighting and fighting.
You just feel like alighting from this train that's kingdom bound.


Well remember God has called you cause he knows he can support you,
and besides, He'd never let you down.
He is confident you'll  make it and assured that
you can take it, He really wants you to wear the crown.


So keep on, don't stop striving and before you know it you'll  be thriving on love (He won't apply the brakes).
For God knows what he is doing and if you trust everything to him,
you'll find that He never makes mistakes.

What a world we live in

This week we have rioting in Baltimore. This is becoming more frequent in America and we know where it is leading. 

What a World We Live In

What a world we live in
Who could not wait to see
God's kingdom to replace it
And bring us sanity

Everyone is searching
For something more in life
But no one wants to listen
When you tell them what is right

Governments are failing
Can't solve their nation's woes
The reason is rebellion
And not following God's laws

Families divided
Delinquents everywhere
Abuse requires “helplines”
Drugs are a panacea

So soon mankind will suffer
Because they wouldn't learn
Then the Lord will be here
Still some refuse to turn

What a world we live in
Yet no one turns to God
He has all the answers
He made us, after all!

A Passover Poem

Passover Reflections

He didn't have to take the pain

For all he knew it could have been in vain

Yet something we can't comprehend

Made him persist until the end

Misunderstood for 30 years

His closest friends knew not his fears

He had a fight to overcome

Yet in face of hunger this was done

Such love as this is hard to find

That one would suffer for another's crime

Not knowing if mankind would claim

This olive branch grown out of pain

So at this time we pause to reflect

And consider all, lest we forget

How Jesus Christ did sacrifice

In order that we might have life.

                                                     

                                                By Melonie Holmes

Lessons from Petra

Our recently deceased dog Petra was a Shiba Inu which is a Japanese breed known to be reserved and independent. He would come into our room at night and sometimes, I would wake up.   One night while I was getting back to sleep I began to think about dogs and how they are a unique animal that seems to be have been created to be "man's best friend". I wondered about the characteristics of dogs and what they could teach us maybe about our relationship to God. Here are a few of my thoughts. Bear in mind that our dog is an inside pet and I'm not a dog expert by any means and this is the first dog that I have ever had so these were just my thoughts and observations. 

Dogs rely completely on their owner - unlike cats which roam outside freely and can catch their own food, a dog seems to me to be totally dependent on their owner for everything. They eat when we say, go out when we say etc. This is how we need to be with our Father, relying completely on Him for everything. 

They love to be close to their owner - eventhough my Shiba Inu is independent he still likes to be around either me or my husband. He'll sit in the same room but just isn't the type to need to be petted, as long he is in the vicinity of either of us he's content. If we      move to another room he'll follow. I know other dogs are very much more affectionate and need a lot of petting. We need to love to be close to God.

They love to eat what we eat - this may be bad training on our part! but our dog knows when we have some juicy beef bone or possible left overs and he will wait until he's certain that he's not getting any before he'll eat his own food. When I come in from shopping he looks eagerly at the bags to see if  I'll pull out any goodies for him. We are given so much spiritual food straight from the mind of our Father and we need to be eager to eat it.


They can be stubborn - As I mentioned, Shiba Inu's are by nature independent. Sometimes he will be lying down and I will call him and he'll just ignore me. I might have to call him three times and make my voice sharp for him to even look up! We need to not have this characteristic and be receptive and quick to respond to God's direction.

Dogs quickly bounce back from correction - whenever Petra does something naughty and gets told off or spanked he'll slink off by himself for a while. It won't be long though until he comes shyly back looking for a rub. That's how we need to be when we are corrected and realize that it's for our good and God never stops loving us.                        

They fast and seclude themselves when they need to recuperate - A few months ago Petra was attacked by a couple of pit bulls and had some fairly severe lacerations to his back, neck and leg. He was in pain and shook up. When we brought him home from the vet he spent the next two weeks barely eating, not wanting to interact with us and hiding in the bathroom or other quiet areas of the house. Exactly 14 days later he emerged back to his normal self. Sometimes we need to take time out to fast and reflect to get ourselves back to spiritual health.

What are some of the lessons you've observed from "man's best friend"?